Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Two week to go!!!

As of Thursday, we are at 38 weeks, which is two weeks until the due date for our little one!! So, really he or she could come any day now and would be born a perfect, healthy, happy (I hope) and very loved and already spoiled child!

I have had a roller coaster of emotions as things are getting closer. First, I had to finish school and I had to finish and pass my national Praxis exam (both of which were totally stressful but I was successful). Since both of those things were completed, I have had to work on baby stuff, clean house and deal with some family medical issues. Well, I finished cleaning house (only for the silly puppies to soil it all again with their fur and paw prints), and I washed all the baby things in baby detergent and packed my bags for the hospital. The family medical stuff, while serious has taken a back burner because quite frankly, non of it is anything I can control with anything short of prayer.

That being said, I wanted to talk about the movie/ book "Heaven is For Real" for a moment. When we miscarried four years ago, someone gave us that book and I ignored it for about two years because I was mad at God for taking our baby and even decided at one point that God didn't exist, because if he did, why would he allow innocent children to die and great people get Cancer and all the bad things to happen that happen to good people????? Anyway, I did read it finally and after crying my eyes out, I found peace and hope again. There is a part in the book where the child tells his mom that his "sister" hugged him in heaven, well the couple lost that baby in a miscarriage and didn't even know it was a girl. It is comforting to think that our lost baby is enjoying the comforts of eternal life in Heaven and is watching out for us now. I just watched the movie tonight and again, after dying my eyes out, found comfort and peace.

Another person who is watching out for us now and who I (and the entire family) believe that has helped in the process of this baby coming into our lives, is Dan's grandmother. She prayed daily for her family and I know that last year when she went to Heaven, she demanded that we get the baby that we have longed for these last several years. Many people along with her prayed for this to happen for us and just like in the movie, the power of prayer has prevailed!

Thanks to that power of prayer, in just two short weeks (or sooner) there will be a baby Leade and that baby had already brought our family together again and I know he or she will continue to do great things in life!

Of course, we have to get him or her through life and raise them to be the best that they can be in order to do the great things that they are destine to do first, but I don't want to rush through these first few years, so we will enjoy them and soak up all things baby that there is to enjoy before we start looking for him or her to prove greatness.

Needless to say, I am getting excited but it hasn't felt "real" since the beginning, even though I have heard the heartbeats and seen the sonograms. It has been like I am participating in someone else's pregnancy instead. It will be real enough soon though and I can't wait! I will let you all know as soon as that little one arrives and if you all have any bets on what (boy or girl) and what date exactly, let me know. ;)

As always, continue to pray for our surrogate, Electra to be healthy and for our baby to be born healthy and without hardship. Thank you all.