Well, I went into the lab this morning and had my blood drawn at 6:15 am and went to work. All morning, I have waited with high anxiety for the phone call from the doctors office.
They called at 11:15. The results are negative. I am not pregnant. They don't have any answers. I can go back and consult with him later in the week or next week or whenever I choose. If I choose too.
Right now, I am heartbroken. The hardest part of it all is knowing that once again, I have disappointed my husband.
I don't know what is next, if anything, but for now I will be sad and disappointed until I am ready to move forward.
Thank you for all your support and prayers. Maybe one day it will all work.
Oh no! Oh- I'm so sorry Sam! Of course you are sad and heartbroken. And all the way over here in Arkansas I am sad for you. But do not blame yourself for disappointing your husband. No one is to blame. This is a terrible thing, but please don't add guilt to your sadness!
ReplyDeleteThere are no words to console your sorrow...Feel your feelings andknow that others are brought sadness from this news. Somehow you WILL have a child or children..
DeleteIf not from your own womb..Someone elses..Have Faith..
Much love and healing energy to you and Dan....
What would comfort the mother's heart that cries out of the empty womb of love. The emptiness of which must be unbearable, and not able to measure. My spirit cries with you, my heart breaks with you. I love you my child, nothing could ever stop the beating of the mother's heart in you!
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone. I do not know what is next or what will become of us and our family to be, but it is nice to know that we have supporters out there who love and care for us. We will be OK eventually......
ReplyDeleteSam This is the first time that I have used facebook and I see this. I'm greiving with you. God has a plan for you and Dan. We just don't know what it is. Please be encouraged that He does have a plan. prayer Father I pray peace and comfort that only you can give to Sam and Dan. Lord I pray that your Will will be done. If you see fit I pray that you will open Sam's womb to be able to have a child but if it isn't your Will they will be able to accept it and look for your blessing through it. Amen
ReplyDeleteMy doughter Andrea is having the same problem. She lives here in the fayetteville area and is making many trips to Tulsa to a doctor there. They are looking into invetro? We are praying for them also and will be praying for you two also. Gail's dad has pancreatic cancer its bad stuff and don't look good for him. Have Dan call me if he would like to. Have you got him into church yet? Praying for you phil
Phil, thank you for your prayer and kind words. I will be praying for your daughter too. Please let her know that she can contact me if she has any questions. I may be able to help.
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